Grounded.

 

In my life, feeling grounded is something that I place a lot of significance in; it’s something that I desperately strive to feel on a day to day basis.

I recently made a post on my social media about feeling like where I was at in life was enough. About how thankful I am to be in this place that I’ve found myself in the present moment. Many of my thoughts are tailored around finding that feeling of being “okay” in whatever situation I’m in, mostly because if I don’t focus on that feeling, it’s too easy for me to become overwhelmed or overstimulated by the situation.

Lately I’ve been finding it easier to notice when I’m feeling grounded. I’ve been able to see the moment and breathe it in with less struggle than before. Realizing that I have been able to hang on to this feeling, however, has made me start to really question what it means for me to be grounded. I thought at first it was just the feeling when I wasn’t worried about what was happening or when things in my life were going “as planned”. I also thought that being grounded went hand in hand with me being in control of things in my life-or at least feeling like I was in control of them.

Let me really start by saying I was wrong.

Well, I was right in part, but mostly wrong. I was correct about thinking that I felt grounded when I was in control, but I was wrong in the assumption that what I was feeling was actually grounded.

The OED (my most favorite tool) helped me out on that one.

Grounded: a. Deeply or strongly founded; firmly fixed or established; resting upon a good basis. Chiefly fig. of immaterial things.

“resting upon a good basis”.

That’s what I’m feeling now. I’m not in control of my life any more now than I was a year ago, but I have a better understanding of myself and my foundation. I am more sure about who I am and who I want to be.

Lately my comfort zone has not been something that I would recognize if it was standing right in front of me, which is why I was wrong to connect the feeling of being grounded to having things go as I thought they were supposed to. I am saying “yes” to more things. I am giving myself a chance to find my own way while being true to who I am in my heart of hearts. I am learning to let the things that I want or need be bigger than my fear of failure or of heart break. I feel like where I am at is enough. I feel grounded and “firmly fixed-established”. Things are harder. I am more tired than I have been in a long time. But I am happier than I can remember ever being.

 

Things I need to remember right now:

I am in my season of growth. 

Where I’m at is enough. 

Saying no is okay.

Saying YES is okay.

Standing on your own two feet can be empowering.

Your heart can start to heal.

Progress happens-slowly, and then all at once.

 

I am grounded.